Well i’ve been absolutely rubbish at updating my blog recently. I’ll just do a ‘mini’ update for now and hopefully i’ll be able to get blogging properly again soon.

I’ve been learning to drive and it’s going decently well, my pops was teaching me for a couple of months before i started proper lessons so that helped a lot. My theory test is booked for Valentine’s Day and i think i’m almost ready for it so fingers crossed.

I made a new friend who is transitioning and lives literally a couple of streets away; we only met whilst out up town through a mutual friend. Weird that we’d never met despite living so close. It’s great because it’s another person i can present as male to and they understand it all but at the same time, i still have no genderqueer friends to talk to about things, not in person anyway which is what i’d really love. I’ve noticed that when i wear my binder lately i get really bad pains in my breasts after taking it off, makes me not want to wear it but sometimes i have to.

I’ve become a serious hermit lately and i seem to be incapable of being sociable with other humans. I feel tired all of the time and am almost constantly paranoid and insecure. Considering talking to my doctor about it but i’d rather not go alone. Problem being i have no-one to take with me… Conundrum.

I’ve been doing fine with being single, i’m not exactly in a state to be seeing anyone anyway. But i have noticed that the past few days i’ve been ever so slightly ‘in heat’. But even if i did manage to date someone, i’m too insecure to sleep with anyone so i’m still stuck.

So yeah, not a very positive update but it’s all truth.

One nice thing (because i’d rather leave this on a high note) is that i asked my dad to save a page of the newspaper for me that had Kate Winslet all over it so i could keep it. He smirked and said “I can’t blame you for asking” before we shared a look and laughed at each other, my mum of course was shaking her head in a jokey way. It was a small but awesome moment between us and it made me remember/realise how awesome my parents are for how supportive, understanding and accepting they’ve been about everything since i came out in ’08. I’m really lucky to have such amazing people for parents.