I’m Tyler, 21 years old and i live in England.I think i kissed one of my friends some time after midnight on new years but i genuinely do not know if it really happened or if i dreamt it.
I have literally never consumed so much alcohol and certainly not on an empty stomach and after very little sleep. I was an absolute wreck, i’m not proud of how bad i got but i needed to get a shit load of stuff out of my head.
Anyway, i needed the toilet so i went and my friend came out, she saw how upset i was and dragged me into the cubicle. That’s when i think we kissed. But seriously, i don’t know if it really happened and it doesn’t matter i guess. But i’ve never lost my memory over drinking before. I don’t want to ask because it’s just going to be a seriously awkward and unnecessary conversation.
I need to get a grip and sort shit out. I’m meant to be making changes this year, i’m meant to be fixing broken friendships and making progress on my identity. I need a lot of work but i’m willing to focus on it. I just wish i had at least one person i could be close with so i have the support i feel i need. I miss that support. I miss that closeness.
Anyway, onwards and upwards! Things will be better =)
