February 2012
16 posts
Tumblr why do you hate me so much lately?!
Okay in my last post i tried to add; “I wish i had the body to be able to wear these and look as cool. Even just for a day.”
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To bind or not to bind? That is the question.
I’m 50/50 on whether i want to bind or not when i go up town tomorrow night with my team. I want to because i usually feel better about my chest but there are a few negative points to consider.
Let’s do a pro/con list shall we?
Pro 1- If i feel like i’ll pass well and my hips aren’t making me feel dysphoric then the binder will make me feel epic and complete my appearance. 2- It’s another chance...
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I felt dysphoric during sex for the first time...
It was pretty unsettling for me, i didn’t expect to feel that way because my gender identity has never affected how i feel during intimacy before. I’m not entirely sure why i suddenly felt dysphoric but i’m hoping that when i’m with the right person, it won’t be an issue again.
Other than that, i have no complaints about the whole thing, it was a pretty great night...
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I passed my theory test today :-)
I managed to get 49 marks out of 50 on the multiple choice and 60 out of 75 on the hazard perception.
I have no idea how i managed it but i’m so happy, just need to pass my practical now! :-)
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Tumblr hates me, or at least doesn't want me...
I tried to say along with the last photo that the reason i’m sharing these is that they were taken in happy times. They remind me of having an amazing time with my friend Ronna, just being goofs and enjoying each other’s company.
There are two more to follow, the last is a bit of an outtake, it makes me laugh because i remember the moment it was taken, funny times.
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Edman: Trans-men are real men. →
edman93:
Yes, I am a man, yes, I have breast tissue, but hey, guess what, so does EVERYONE.
There is nothing wrong with me being shirtless, it shouldn’t be something to be made a huge deal out of. So my chest isnt perfectly scuplted like some cis guys chests, but it’s not obscene…
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Can't seem to add text to my picture post o_O
I’ll try putting it here instead, in reference to my last photo…
“Despite my failure at experimenting with my hair and forgetting to clean the mirror, i like this picture because it makes me feel that i look more ‘buff’ than i thought. I’ve been having a bit of dysphoria the last few days so it’s good to be able to look at this and feel more at...
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Well i’ve been absolutely rubbish at updating my blog recently. I’ll just do a ‘mini’ update for now and hopefully i’ll be able to get blogging properly again soon.
I’ve been learning to drive and it’s going decently well, my pops was teaching me for a couple of months before i started proper lessons so that helped a lot. My theory test is booked for Valentine’s Day and i think i’m almost ready...
January 2012
37 posts
thejessmooney asked: I literally feel sick to my stomach after reading that message. What horrible things to say to somebody, and like you said the fact that she's probably sending it to other people too is just awful. It's disgusting how idiotic and prejudiced some people can be. I hope you feel better soon with everything that's been going on, and know that I'm always here to talk and virtual hug...
idksomethinggenderqueer asked: Hey... that message you received is a plea for a fight; please don't answer it. It's not worth it to argue with someone like that. Their message and opinion are disgusting and wrong, and I don't know how they live with themselves. The level of ignorance is baffling. 2-3% of the population? How about over 10%. Honestly, all I could think of when reading that was the Nazis and...
In regards to my post about the message i got on...
I’m definitely not responding, you’re all right to say it’s best not to. I’ve done nothing to them and i won’t attack back when all they’re after is the attention and a fight.
I hope that if anyone else has been unfortunate enough to receive the same or similar messages then they’ve ignored the “please answer this message” bit and just...
slipping-in-and-out-of-cynicism replied to your post: That message you received broke my heart. I’m sitting here in tears over it because someone talked to you like that, and talked about everyone like us like that. It’s insane. I wanted to reblog it, so other people can see how insane that woman is, but I thought I’d ask you first because I’m not sure how you felt about it all since this is...
slipping-in-and-out-of-cynicism asked: That message you received broke my heart. I'm sitting here in tears over it because someone talked to you like that, and talked about everyone like us like that. It's insane. I wanted to reblog it, so other people can see how insane that woman is, but I thought I'd ask you first because I'm not sure how you felt about it all since this is your personal blog, and that was a very...
hoopdayz replied to your post: Received this in my inbox on YouTube 18/1/12
I would just ignore it. Some people dude… some people are so ignorant
Tell me about it! Am going to ignore it, at most i’m going to report them but we’ll see if that does any good. Just amazes me how ignorant people can be…
Received this in my inbox on YouTube 18/1/12
Hello “Tyler”, you are what you are and have to deal with it, like everybody else. Stop trying to pretend to be “better” than others because you consider yourself “genderless”. You have to play your gender role, you have to do what society expects from you. If you don’t, you have to suffer from the consequences. Just look what you have between your legs....
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I dreamt about my ex last night. The one person i’ve been in love with, it was a strange, pleasing yet disappointing dream all at the same time.
I won’t go into detail because my dreams are bizarre as it is and you know how i waffle on. The main points are that we were with a large group of friends in some form of theatre and i felt like me again. I felt really happy, secure and content having...
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I must try and blog more frequently.
Okay, so i kind of like a girl on my football team but things aren’t being simple. I’ll call her Betty to keep it simple.
At the moment, i don’t want to get attached to anyone unless we’ve gotten to know each other pretty well and i’m pretty sure that feelings are mutual. I also want to avoid getting attached to anyone who is having any form of drama with an ex.
By that i mean mainly such as the...
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heightofinnocence asked: haha thanks for the photo comment! i go to halesowen :)
rowansjourney asked: Yeah im from Birmingham, going to Plymouth uni in Sept though, should be interesting :D Im quite similar really, definitely agree with the anything but female. Since realizing im more of a guy,im more ok with acting like a girl, if that makes any sense. Me though, can't wait to start T and get top surgery, i think i would struggle with binding all the time as i have a pretty large chest that...
rowansjourney asked: Hey i see you like greys anatomy *high five*. Anyway, its cool to find a fellow trans*/gender questioning person from the midlands. How would you identify at the minute, where do you see yourself in terms of whether you will transition fully. To me you completely pass as male btw. :D
There will be Meat: Donors and Dysphoria →
lorycannotsupinate:
socialjusticeally:
sporketysporkism:
A couple from my football team are asking friends on Facebook for help finding a sperm donor so they can have a child together.
I forgot that, as much as i feel male tonight, i don’t have sperm. So i was pretty…
So being reminded of the fact i can’t produce sperm and therefore being reminded that i am assigned female...
thejessmooney asked: Oi, I've got a real question for you now: Why are you so damned attractive? <3
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Donors and Dysphoria
A couple from my football team are asking friends on Facebook for help finding a sperm donor so they can have a child together.
I forgot that, as much as i feel male tonight, i don’t have sperm. So i was pretty disappointed when i realised i won’t be able to actually donate for them. They’re such a lovely couple, i really am gutted i can’t help.
I’m also really...
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rowansjourney asked: Hey, just wondering are you from Birmingham?
thejessmooney asked: Guess who got skype working! :)
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i just shaved my legs for the first time since...
I feel a little relieved which is a surprise to me. But i’ll have to wait and see if/how much it affects my dysphoria. It feels so strange having smooth legs again… I can say that i felt a little odd and dysphoric whilst shaving them, but the feeling of relief that the fuzz isn’t covering my skin anymore is greater than anything else. Let’s see how this goes.
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Somewhere over that big queer rainbow, skys are...
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kelseykarnage asked: I would give someone my left leg to move as far from Dudley as possbible! haha x
kelseykarnage asked: It's just a nice place to go to relax, and get away from it all. I'd love to live there, better than Dudley ;) xx
kelseykarnage asked: Hiya! :) I was in like, Year 9 When you were in Year 11, So you probably don't remember me hahaa. I've only been to Barmouth once, but I'm going again in August. My Boyfriend has been going there all his life, and he took me for my first time. It's amazing there! so peaceful :) Do you go there much? xx
I think i kissed one of my friends some time after midnight on new years but i genuinely do not know if it really happened or if i dreamt it.
I have literally never consumed so much alcohol and certainly not on an empty stomach and after very little sleep. I was an absolute wreck, i’m not proud of how bad i got but i needed to get a shit load of stuff out of my head.
Anyway, i needed the...